so as my Mono has calmed down a little and I have pretty much passed the contagion period, I decided to take Sophie, my fiancee, on a real date and give her a real proposal. I planned an entire day and ended up stealing the ring I gave her and took her to the beach and actually got down on one knee. I know maybe to some people it doesn’t sound necessary but I know Soph wanted an actual proposal and something romantic so it was important to give her that. She has been the most amazing caretaker while I’ve been sick and I owe her an actual proposal. While we aren’t going to actually have a wedding for a while, Soph did tell me she wanted to plan the entire thing which I don’t mind and that all I have to do is to show up.
Anyways, I will be more active as I feel a lot better. Have a happy and safe weekend everyone.
So when you’ve been sick in bed for over a week, your mind begins to wonder you sometimes begin to think philosophically. To say I have had a lot of time on my hands would be an understatement but I have been thinking a lot about how much life has changed in a year and how appreciative I am of everything that has happened, good and bad. I have been getting pretty existential and thinking philosophically with the year I have had.
I am going to assume that most of my readers know what a stressful year I’ve had as I have written about it extensively. While my struggles have been difficult and hard to overcome, I have been thinking a lot about how we all struggle and in each person we meet in life, is struggling in a way. I consider my struggles to be part of my success and don’t regret any decisions I have made. In my sickness, I have just been thinking of how cruel of a world we live in and how unnecessarily mean we are too each other and how proud we are of it. We live in a world were we ignore each other to get someone else’s attention and then brag about it. I know this all seems jumbled and doesn’t make sense and I really apologize for that but I just wanted to put it out there that I am simply perplexed that we can’t be nicer to one another ad have a deeper level of empathy and compassion because we all are humans and want the same things, love, compassion, and understandings.
Something I’ve been thinking about lately is how reality has gotten so large and various people now take little bits of it, imagine that’s the whole, and call it the truth.
so I seem to have come down with mono which for those who know what that is, know how terrible it is. I will be posting when I can but I really have no energy for long meaningful posts at the moment. I do apologize and will be more detailed when I feel better.
So we just got back to LA last night and we rented a Airbnb for my mom and Sophie’s parents to stay at since we wanted some privacy after the long vacation. In case you missed it, Sophie’s parents came to visit as well from Canada. They have been getting along really well, a little more than we had hoped.(Jk) They have been getting along so well, they went to a wine bar when we got back and all hung out together.
After they got back, Sophie went to the Airbnb with her parents while my mom hung out with me and we had a good talk about the engagement and how she is proud of me. She apologized for being difficult and she said she really likes Sophie a lot and thinks she’s good for me. Obviously, I agree. Hearing that from my mom, who hasn’t always been supportive, made my year so far.
As the week goes on, I can’t wait to spend more time with my mom, Sophie, and her parents,
Apologies for the delay, I’ve been busy up in Santa Barbara with family. My mother threw Sophie and I an over the top engagement party on Friday night and Saturday and Sunday we spent most of the day outdoors. Today is the final dinner before we all leave back to our lives tomorrow. Sophie’s parents came in as well and met my mother and step father. I will be more active following tomorrow.