So as the weekend approaches, I have been thinking about how different things were just a year ago. For those who have not had a chance to go through some of my earlier posts, I was in a very abusive relationship a year ago in May and ultimately got pregnant and lost a baby. It was May 19th of last year that I found out I was pregnant. I should specify that I was with this guy for two years and he wasn’t always a bad guy. He started using drugs and his entire demeanor changed. I found out that I was pregnant and in July I lost the baby due to his violence and since the summer is coming up soon, I am anticipating an emotional summer. My girlfriend has been nothing but extremely supportive and more than understanding as I have been difficult lately. She understands that I am dealing with probably Post Traumatic Stress (as many do on an anniversary of an event) and has said she understands the summer will be difficult for me.
I do know she is right that the summer won’t be easy but I also know that I am in a lot better place than I was a year ago and even than I was six months ago. I told her I would do my absolute best to make this summer amazing and have even planned on taking her on some fun vacations. It definitely won’t be easy but I plan on giving my girl and I an amazing summer.